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Dan kita pula mencari alasan.

Nah amik ni dear anonymous.

That's her. Yang tak pakai spek mata itu.

Now, can I know why you want to see her picture so much?

Macam mana mahu mulakan sesuatu cerita yang sangat memalukan?

Aku ketika itu tergopoh-gapah,
dalam perjalanan dari dorm mahu ke Dewan Kuliah.

Tujuan utama ; Kem Top "A" Star Student untuk pelajar tingkatan 5.
Semestinya kem yang punya kaitan dengan SPM.

Dalam perjalanan, tiba-tiba rasa mahu singgah ke tandas. Tapi tak tahu macam mana, semalam aku sama sekali tak rasa nak masuk tandas perempuan. Aku melangkah laju menuju ke tandas lelaki yang terletak bersebelahan dengan kelas aku. Mungkin, ketika itu aku rasa tandas itu yang paling hampir. Sometimes, you got to do what you got to do. Dan dalam kes aku ini, i have to go where i have to go.

Sebaik sahaja aku menolak pintu tandas, tahu tidak siapa aku nampak di dalam?
Salah seorang abang Fasilitator!!

Melihat dia di dalam masih di kira ok lagi, kerana sememangnya itu tandas lelaki. (Salah aku. Sapa suruh masuk. Dah tahu ketika itu ada lelaki di kawasan sekolah) Tapi the only thing yang buat aku merah satu muka ialah ketika itu dia sedang membetul-betulkan seluar nya. -_-'

Ya Allah! Ketika itu hanya Tuhan sahaja yang tahu betapa malunya aku.
Dan dia sedang memandang tepat ke wajah aku.

But the only thing yang aku mampu buat ketika itu was nothing except to look back at him. I think I did smile a bit, and then I closed the door.

What was I supposed to do? Lepas tutup pintu, aku cepat2 lari masuk DK. Terus tak jadi nak pergi tandas. Dan sepanjang hari tu aku elak dari bertembung dengan dia.

Rasa-rasanya dia ingat tak muka aku?

Picture

Don't they look happy? :)

I google my own name, HAHAHAHA

God. I feel stupid.

Ehh,
you'd feel the same thing too if you stumbled across a blog you made when you barely reached puberty. I only wrote one entry back then and after the first blog, I end up having more blogs in between due to the fact I forgot most of my passwords to every of my blog, but it still is embarassing. To read your own childish entry after you've finally become a (almost) full grown woman.

Geez,
What was I thinking?

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Sunday, September 24, 2006
Life Current mood: Lifeless

Life, a constant reminder of why we are here,Sometimes its good and sometimes its bad,
When its good, greed takes its toll and we just constantly want more,
When its bad, all we wish for is just one bright star on a dark night.
To me, everything I have learned is based on how my life has come about,
From my first steps, till what I am today, and I am still learning,It has never always been easy, neither has it been hard.

Moderation is always what I have been experiencing, untill now.Why does life consist of burdens, of pain, responsibilities?Can one person do so much? Can one person handle the pain?A look up to god, console myself in isolation,Why? Why? What have I done to carry what I carry now?Its true I have friends that would help me,But I have learned to consume my burden's at my own cost,However, it's just getting a little heavy.

Life, why do some people take it for granted?Why does people that want it to be treasured can have it?Has Life have a pattern for the way it works?Nevertheless, I never doubt God's plan for myself.

To have my family in a middle of a crisis..
To have my sister doing stupid things to herself just because of one lousy BOY..Yup,you heard me right people..Just because of one lousy,worthless boy,my sister is wasting her whole life on this BOY which i hate the most and me,as the only sensible n sane person in the family,have to think bout all the problem by myself..WTF..I'm just 14 years old.. I cant handle everything on my own..

I have never asked for much, but just one wish,One wish to carry me on, move me along, make me stronger,And mostly, make my family a family.Even if my family is not happy,please make my family as what we used to be.For I cannot imagine for one moment, the plague that would come to have them gone.I have only words in which I can express myself,Words to show my true meaning of what I feel inside,Its heavy, its in pain, and mostly its worrying a lot.My heart, is now feeling the wraith.I am alone is this battle, alone in all my war's.

How? Why? When? What?Questions that we should all ask ourselves,Life is a valueble thing to waste,and yes people..i really mean it when i tell you that LIFE is VALUABLE. please I beg you, conserve it and don't waste it.You never know what will come the next day.My days are getting darker and darker,Hands feeling colder and colder, Heart slowly stopping to beat,I must carry on the battle, I must.No matter what, I will go down trying. Its my destiny.I am what I am, I must do what I must do.Therefore, I am here for a reason.Regardless, I shall try my best not to fail.I just ask of God to grant me one wish.
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You can stop laughing now.
*sigh

Fynn Jamal,

Satu nama aku mula kenal sewaktu umur 15 tahun, dan yang pasti aku sangat suka akan dia. Pertemuan secara maya yang aku kira kebetulan, tetapi memberi signifikasi penuh makna.

Video dia yang pertama aku jumpa, membuat bulu roma berdiri tegak.



Dia hebat bukan?

Piess; sekadar berkongsi apa yang aku rasa gila menarik.

Cepat betul masa berlalu,

Gambar hanya sebagai penyeri entri kali ini.

Sekarang semua orang sudah masuk satu fasa 'oh-this-is-our-last-year-together-so-we-have-to-appreciate-every-single-minute-together,
dan aku tengah cuba buat itu.

Kalau diberi peluang tukar segala, takkan aku ubah walau satu. Kerana setiap tapak yang aku langkah, telah bawa aku ke masa kini di mana semua benda yang berlaku hari ini, aku suka.

Tuhan bagi aku mereka sebagai sumber kekuatan. Tak kisah hidup aku sesusah mana pun, mereka tetap ada.

And that teaches me to appreciate them more.

Trial will start on the 5th August 2009 until a week before the school holidays.

It's not easy to let go of something that I love doing so much but in order to succeed,
it's a sacrifice I have to make.

So here I am writing (hopefully) my last entry. Well, at least until the trial's over. I'll try to minimize my usage of the computer but I am seriously hoping that I can overcome this addiction and just focus on my studies. I'm not really aiming high for this trial but at least I want a result that I can be proud with. :D

Anyway,
to all my dear friends who will be sitting for SPM, I wish you guys all the best and good luck for the coming trial. Do pray for my success, our success together ok.

Now let's go and study! :D

HELLOGOODBYE - BABY IT'S FACT

kemenangan yang buat aku semakin bersyukur

"Sayangkan anak, tangan-tangankan,
sayang kan anak murid, rotan saja"
Larry anak Paing

sekarang pening kepala,
selepas separuh hari duduk di PICC tengok debat bahasa melayu.

I was looking forward for the English debate tapi sebab debate bahasa inggeris pagi, dan form 5 ada kelas tambahan add math dan test fizik, lantas hasrat nak menonton perlawanan akhir debate terpaksa dipendamkan. ni lah yang kita panggil sebagai tidak punya rezeki.

tapi aku masih lagi gembira.

kerana aku ada untuk menyaksikan SSP diumumkan sebagai Johan Piala Perdana Menteri bagi kategori Bahasa Inggeris. Alhamdulillah, selepas 27 tahun menunggu akhirnya tahun ni tercapai impian. Syukur sangat. ohh, dan best speaker ENGLISH is Ameera Natasha Moore.

Dengan usul 'THBT THAT BLOGGERS ARE A THREAT TO NATIONAL SECURITY' dan memikul tanggungjawab sebagai pihak pembangkang, jelas mereka berjaya membuktikan bahawa 'bloggers are NOT A THREAT to national security'. Well, at least not ALL. :DD

aku tak ingat sangat usul debat BM, tapi ada kaitan dengan hukuman merotan pelajar seharusnya diberikan kepada semua guru dan seperti yang telah dijangka, SMAPK menang dan pendebat terbaik keseluruhan ; AFIQ.

PLKN 2010

aku rasa kali ni tak perlu mukadimah panjang lebar,
cuma nak kongsi yang aku tak terpilih menjadi pelatih PLKN 2010.
alhamdulillah. :D

maaf bagi yang terpilih tapi tak suka,
sebab kalau terbaca entri ini, pasti kau rasa macam nak sepak aja aku kan.
walau apa kau rasa, aku ucapkan selamat maju jaya.

usah risau,
mana tahu, disebalik PLKN terhijab satu kelebihan yang kau sendiri tak tahu.
mana tahu, selepas 3 bulan nanti, aku pula rasa macam nak turut serta.
mana tahu, banyak benda baik kau dapat sewaktu menjadi pelatih kelak.
you'll never know what God has in store for you.

Jadi, cheer up.
terutama mitty dan faqy! ohh not to forget, IMAN JUGA!
jangan risau, kalau aku free dan kalian pergi kem yang tak jauh dari Gombak, mana tahu aku akan datang lawat. :D

Siapa lagi yang dapat ye?

Bila kau dah tak mampu nak senyum,

Pergi search video pelik dan merepek dekat YOUTUBE. Pasti mampu buat kau gelak sampai pecah usus. HAHHAHAHAHAA