Now,
the Sun is happy.
Showing its face for the world to see.
With its shining rays. Greeting the world with its warm embrace.
Hello world, the Sun says.
Patiently.
She waits in the rain.
She has been waiting for the Sun.
And now that the Sun is out,
she greets the Sun. By putting the brightest smile on her face.
Happy to see the Sun.
Where have you been, she asks.
I've always been here.
Oh. Forget it, she says. It doesnt matter now. All that matter is you're here.
She likes the Sun.
And the blue skies.
Blue, blue skies.
She smiles.
Can't you see that she's happy?
Happy to see the Sun.
_______________________________________________
Ini pula, dapat inspirasi pagi tadi.
Ketika belajar bahasa asing.
Ketika hujan turun renyai-renyai,
sang suria tiba.
:D
Thursday, February 26, 2009
Fourth;Creation
It's hard for her to tell how much she misses him.
On the phone,
He says : I miss you terribly.
Silence.
Only a thank-you could be heard not long after.
But she doesn't say : I miss you too.
There was only silence.
Something was filling inside her. Perhaps it was anticipation.
Anxiety.
Nerves.
or bewilderment.
Don't you miss me, he asks.
She pauses. Didn't even utter a word.
Then, she nods her head. Vigorously.
Forgetting.
That he could not see her.
Yes, she says, I do miss you.
If that is so, then why don't you say it, he asks, tell me that you miss me.
She could sense.
She knows.
That in him, there's doubt. Growing like a cancer in his body. Killing him. Eating him.
Slowly.
He needs certainty. and she's giving him everything else but that.
The way he sounds on the phone when he is trying to hide his feeling from her.
The way he says : It doesn't matter.
When the truth is, they both know.
Words do matter.
At least, at the right time.
Before hanging up,
they exchange their good-bye's.
Then, she feels regret.
Hating herself. For not telling him.
How much she misses him.
Damn.
Telling herself : Tomorrow. I'll call him. And I'll tell him how much I miss him.
Slowly,
Her lips curls upwards and turns into a smile.
_________________________________________________________
Mendapat inspirasi malam tadi.
Teringat kembali apa yang kami bualkan ketika bercakap di telefon.
Ye ye,
saya tahu.
Jiwang.
Maaflah.
On the phone,
He says : I miss you terribly.
Silence.
Only a thank-you could be heard not long after.
But she doesn't say : I miss you too.
There was only silence.
Something was filling inside her. Perhaps it was anticipation.
Anxiety.
Nerves.
or bewilderment.
Don't you miss me, he asks.
She pauses. Didn't even utter a word.
Then, she nods her head. Vigorously.
Forgetting.
That he could not see her.
Yes, she says, I do miss you.
If that is so, then why don't you say it, he asks, tell me that you miss me.
She could sense.
She knows.
That in him, there's doubt. Growing like a cancer in his body. Killing him. Eating him.
Slowly.
He needs certainty. and she's giving him everything else but that.
The way he sounds on the phone when he is trying to hide his feeling from her.
The way he says : It doesn't matter.
When the truth is, they both know.
Words do matter.
At least, at the right time.
Before hanging up,
they exchange their good-bye's.
Then, she feels regret.
Hating herself. For not telling him.
How much she misses him.
Damn.
Telling herself : Tomorrow. I'll call him. And I'll tell him how much I miss him.
Slowly,
Her lips curls upwards and turns into a smile.
_________________________________________________________
Mendapat inspirasi malam tadi.
Teringat kembali apa yang kami bualkan ketika bercakap di telefon.
Ye ye,
saya tahu.
Jiwang.
Maaflah.
KASUT AKU TUMIT TERCABUT!
Bloody brilliant, she says, while looking at her shoe.
It's broken. The heel of the shoe is broken.
Only the right shoe is in a good condition while the left is 'dead'.
Well, it's broken for crying out loud.
I need new shoes, she thinks. A brand new, flat shoes.
I'm tired of high heels,
and quitely she nodded her head.
Yes, they hurt my feet. Alot.
She thinks ; maybe I should call daddy today.
and tell him to buy me new shoes.
Or perhaps,
she should wait ,
for this Sunday to come
and then she can get those new shoes herself.
Yes, she thinks, perhaps I really should wait.
Patience is virtue.
She likes it.
She likes the idea of this Sunday.
She sits infront of the computer, staring at the monitor and starts to think a solution to another problem,
that had just arisen.
Now,
please tell her in the simplest way that you can,
how the hell is she going to go back to the dorm with only one shoe?
It's broken. The heel of the shoe is broken.
Only the right shoe is in a good condition while the left is 'dead'.
Well, it's broken for crying out loud.
I need new shoes, she thinks. A brand new, flat shoes.
I'm tired of high heels,
and quitely she nodded her head.
Yes, they hurt my feet. Alot.
She thinks ; maybe I should call daddy today.
and tell him to buy me new shoes.
Or perhaps,
she should wait ,
for this Sunday to come
and then she can get those new shoes herself.
Yes, she thinks, perhaps I really should wait.
Patience is virtue.
She likes it.
She likes the idea of this Sunday.
She sits infront of the computer, staring at the monitor and starts to think a solution to another problem,
that had just arisen.
Now,
please tell her in the simplest way that you can,
how the hell is she going to go back to the dorm with only one shoe?
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
PLEASE GET A BRAIN FIRST
A picture of me during Cyber Run. Pardon me for the beriyer face. :DSukantara,
has just ended.
Truth be told, I'm not happy with myself.
Actually, I'm not really happy with my contribution for Emerald. I only contribute 3 marks which sucks compare to my other friends. It's heartbreaking to be the one known as the black sheep. The one who doesn't do anything for the sake of Emerald. The one who yet again, is not contributing anything for Emerald for Sports's Day. Yipee. *note the sarcasm* I might as well go house-less for this coming Sport's Day. It's kinda awkward being the only form five standing in the middle of the field pretending to be busy helping injured friends. Yeah. Very helpful, indeed.
And Sport's Day is coming, really soon.
In one more week to be exact. The most awaited yearly event. The day when we'll know which house will win, overall. Yeah, can't wait to watch with envy as my house-mates cheer and march for success on the field. *Go EMERALD!*
And i'll be jumping up and down like a monkey on the field, making a complete fool out of myself. :D
Saturday, February 21, 2009
post hari ini panjang gila. bear with me people.
i am happy today. and not to mention,gratefuuuul for the fact that finally, i've made the visit to petrosains for english language club possible this year. the trip was supposed to be carried out last year,
but due to some problems that can't be avoided,the visit was postpone to this year.
along the way, i had encounter problems which somehow, i manage to handle/solve eventhough at a certain point, i nearly gave up hope altogether. i guess, when there's will, there'll be a way to get things done! not to brag, but at least I had done something right, for once!!
i didn't know that we were supposed to book the tickets before going.
silly me. somehow, 2 days before the trip, i was browsing through petrosains website
and it was clearly stated that reservations for group visits have to be reconfirmed 3 days prior to the date of visit. i was in major deep shit, one might say. i couldn't think straight. i keep on thinking for the best solution for the new problem. i wanted to do the easiest solution i could think of,
which is to cancel the trip.
i didn't want to do that. cancelling the trip, that is. i mean, i've given hope to people and for me to shatter their hope into pieces of going on a trip just doesn't feel right.
so i called petrosains with hope that it's ok for us to visit even without booking earlier. and guess what?
the lady who answered my call managed to put us on the 11.30 slot! lucky me! i guess,
lady luck was on my side. :)
but before i hang up,
she said,
"LAIN KALI KALAU NAK LAWAT, SILA BUAT RESERVATION AWAL SEBULAN YE"
i mutter a yes.
actually, i wanted to tell her that my club won't be visiting petrosains in the near future.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
all in all, the trip was not so bad. :D
we ( especially form fivers) had fun. ok maybe not everyone was having great time at petrosains, but i'm sure i did! yeah yeah, i admit that some of the exhibition was quite
hhmmm
boring(?)
but i really had great fun looking through things.
pushing every button that i can get my hands on.
trying every game there is.
and also the 'cuci mata' part!!
HAHA/
the seven ringgit i paid was worth it man!
i was worried actually.
i was afraid that members of the club would think that this trip sucks or would prefer to stay at the hostel or detest the idea of this trip. luckily, everyone enjoyed themselves. ohh and after the visit, we got the chance to roam at klcc!
eternal bliss, i tell you.
the first place i went after teacher gave us the permission to go anywhere that we want was
KFC!
i was hungry, mind you.
so what's the best thing to do when one is hungry?
e. a. t. i. n. g. of course!
KFC was super duper yummy!
i think that's how it works.. you don't eat something for a while and then when you do eat it, it's like the best food ever!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
AWESOMEEEEE-NESS!
but due to some problems that can't be avoided,the visit was postpone to this year.
along the way, i had encounter problems which somehow, i manage to handle/solve eventhough at a certain point, i nearly gave up hope altogether. i guess, when there's will, there'll be a way to get things done! not to brag, but at least I had done something right, for once!!
i didn't know that we were supposed to book the tickets before going.
silly me. somehow, 2 days before the trip, i was browsing through petrosains website
and it was clearly stated that reservations for group visits have to be reconfirmed 3 days prior to the date of visit. i was in major deep shit, one might say. i couldn't think straight. i keep on thinking for the best solution for the new problem. i wanted to do the easiest solution i could think of,
which is to cancel the trip.
i didn't want to do that. cancelling the trip, that is. i mean, i've given hope to people and for me to shatter their hope into pieces of going on a trip just doesn't feel right.
so i called petrosains with hope that it's ok for us to visit even without booking earlier. and guess what?
the lady who answered my call managed to put us on the 11.30 slot! lucky me! i guess,
lady luck was on my side. :)
but before i hang up,
she said,
"LAIN KALI KALAU NAK LAWAT, SILA BUAT RESERVATION AWAL SEBULAN YE"
i mutter a yes.
actually, i wanted to tell her that my club won't be visiting petrosains in the near future.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
all in all, the trip was not so bad. :D
we ( especially form fivers) had fun. ok maybe not everyone was having great time at petrosains, but i'm sure i did! yeah yeah, i admit that some of the exhibition was quite
hhmmm
boring(?)
but i really had great fun looking through things.
pushing every button that i can get my hands on.
trying every game there is.
and also the 'cuci mata' part!!
HAHA/
the seven ringgit i paid was worth it man!
i was worried actually.
i was afraid that members of the club would think that this trip sucks or would prefer to stay at the hostel or detest the idea of this trip. luckily, everyone enjoyed themselves. ohh and after the visit, we got the chance to roam at klcc!
eternal bliss, i tell you.
the first place i went after teacher gave us the permission to go anywhere that we want was
KFC!
i was hungry, mind you.
so what's the best thing to do when one is hungry?
e. a. t. i. n. g. of course!
KFC was super duper yummy!
i think that's how it works.. you don't eat something for a while and then when you do eat it, it's like the best food ever!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
tambahandalambahasamelayu ; tak tahu kenapa, tapi abang-abang kat petrosains hari ni hooottt glerrr bai! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHHA.
AWESOMEEEEE-NESS!
Friday, February 20, 2009
jangan cepat sangat lupa.
sometimes we forget what's important.
we tend to be stupid.
ignorant on what's right
and what's wrong.
friends become foes.
our only aim is to win.
no matter what it takes.
but somewhere in the middle,
we lose our dignity.
our virtue.
willing to tear apart the bond we've created for five years,
for something that is not even for sure yet.
calling ourselves as rightful leaders who deserve to be on the highest seat.
wanting things to go as we please.
forgetting that we are living with human beings.
who have emotions.
complicated-unexplainable-mixed feelings.
who wants to be treated equally ; just like we do.
we too, tend to take things for granted.
dismissing other people's ideas and thoughts.
wanting to do as what we've planned.
not wanting to negotiate.
hearing other people's vision.
ideas.
thoughts.
hopes.
and dreams.
the most important thing of all is to stick together.
even if we have different view on things.
through adversity, there's life lessons going on,
important lessons that we don't learn in class,
or in text books.
lessons we must experience ourselves,
in order to understand the purpose of life.
purpose of living,
breathing and knowing that
we are still alive and kicking!
there are more important things than winning and having good stats.
losing doesn't mean failure.
it means,
waking up from the defeat and trying to get something better.
futnota ; i was inspired to be inspiring today.
so don't blame me for the sudden weird-ness.
we tend to be stupid.
ignorant on what's right
and what's wrong.
friends become foes.
our only aim is to win.
no matter what it takes.
but somewhere in the middle,
we lose our dignity.
our virtue.
willing to tear apart the bond we've created for five years,
for something that is not even for sure yet.
calling ourselves as rightful leaders who deserve to be on the highest seat.
wanting things to go as we please.
forgetting that we are living with human beings.
who have emotions.
complicated-unexplainable-mixed feelings.
who wants to be treated equally ; just like we do.
we too, tend to take things for granted.
dismissing other people's ideas and thoughts.
wanting to do as what we've planned.
not wanting to negotiate.
hearing other people's vision.
ideas.
thoughts.
hopes.
and dreams.
the most important thing of all is to stick together.
even if we have different view on things.
through adversity, there's life lessons going on,
important lessons that we don't learn in class,
or in text books.
lessons we must experience ourselves,
in order to understand the purpose of life.
purpose of living,
breathing and knowing that
we are still alive and kicking!
there are more important things than winning and having good stats.
losing doesn't mean failure.
it means,
waking up from the defeat and trying to get something better.
futnota ; i was inspired to be inspiring today.
so don't blame me for the sudden weird-ness.
Thursday, February 19, 2009
Ini di dedikasikan khas buat orang yang bernama..
SOFHI!
:D
ps ; happy tak nama dah ada kat sarah punya blog? :D
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
nyah kau.
waaaaalaaaaaweeeeeyyyhhhh.
gempak sial.
decided on starting the post with something random!
:D
anyway,
mitty said the weirdest thing ever a few days ago.
"Kita tak kisah kongsi suami dengan korang"
when she said 'korang', she meant me, ezzah and aina.
dear mitty,
obviously you are my friend.
yes i do love you.
and yes i don't mind sharing with you.
but sorry,
i have to draw a very thick line on the solid ground when it comes to sharing boyfriend/husband.
but if that is what GOD had planned for me,
then i'll accept it with open heart.
the thing that saddened me the most is to know that men are never monogamous. never! yeah, they say they are. but after a certain period of time, they'll think they deserve more than one.
bastard.
well,
i hope someone can prove that i'm wrong,
eventually.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA
ps ; jangan cepat melatah.
gempak sial.
decided on starting the post with something random!
:D
anyway,
mitty said the weirdest thing ever a few days ago.
"Kita tak kisah kongsi suami dengan korang"
when she said 'korang', she meant me, ezzah and aina.
dear mitty,
obviously you are my friend.
yes i do love you.
and yes i don't mind sharing with you.
but sorry,
i have to draw a very thick line on the solid ground when it comes to sharing boyfriend/husband.
but if that is what GOD had planned for me,
then i'll accept it with open heart.
the thing that saddened me the most is to know that men are never monogamous. never! yeah, they say they are. but after a certain period of time, they'll think they deserve more than one.
bastard.
well,
i hope someone can prove that i'm wrong,
eventually.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA
ps ; jangan cepat melatah.
major breakdown
screwed. screwed. screwed
tak rasa ke,
life is soooooooooooo dem plain?
i feel it.
like from the core of my sinking heart.
aaaaaaaaand
someone is getting sangat annoying these days okaaaaayy.
please stop irritating me laaaaa you duck!
hey, i can't blame life fr being a major pain in the as*
and the fact that i'm busy doesn't make life any 'fun' than usual.
blerrggh.
hambar.
boleh tolong tambah perisa tak kat hidup aku?
i prefer chocolate.
tak rasa ke,
life is soooooooooooo dem plain?
i feel it.
like from the core of my sinking heart.
aaaaaaaaand
someone is getting sangat annoying these days okaaaaayy.
please stop irritating me laaaaa you duck!
hey, i can't blame life fr being a major pain in the as*
and the fact that i'm busy doesn't make life any 'fun' than usual.
blerrggh.
hambar.
boleh tolong tambah perisa tak kat hidup aku?
i prefer chocolate.
and vanilla.
Sunday, February 15, 2009
MONYET BIRU
Tujuh Belas Itu Manis.
Seperti Mak Monyet kat bawah ni. :D
FATIN : ARGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHH! AKU DAH TUA!
HAHAHHAHAHA.
Nasib baik lah kau sedar.
FATIN DIANA,
AKU SAYANG KAU SANGAT!
HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY!
FATIN : ARGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHH! AKU DAH TUA!
HAHAHHAHAHA.
Nasib baik lah kau sedar.
FATIN DIANA,
AKU SAYANG KAU SANGAT!
HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY!
Saturday, February 14, 2009
14 Februari tidak memberi sebarang makna kepada aku.
hari ini
cyber run.
atau dalam nama lain dipanggil,
merentas desa.
penat mungkin.
walaupun tak lari.
Ini keputusan nya :
Juara : Topaz
Naib Juara : Emerald
Ke-3 : Ruby
Ke-4 : Sapphire
dah.
malas nak cakap banyak.
cyber run.
atau dalam nama lain dipanggil,
merentas desa.
penat mungkin.
walaupun tak lari.
Ini keputusan nya :
Juara : Topaz
Naib Juara : Emerald
Ke-3 : Ruby
Ke-4 : Sapphire
dah.
malas nak cakap banyak.
Friday, February 13, 2009
:D
ini post nak cakap sesuatu kepada seseorang.
nota tambahan ; ezzah, sorry tak ada gambar lain yang tak poyo. HAHAHAHAHA
NUREZZAH ABDULLAH,
SELAMAT HARI LAHIR YANG KE 17!
nota tambahan ; ezzah, sorry tak ada gambar lain yang tak poyo. HAHAHAHAHA
Sunday, February 8, 2009
hitam memang smart.
bertindak ikut kepala otak kadang-kadang bawak impak negatif kat hidup seseorang.
contoh mudah aku bagi,
kejadian yang berlaku semalam.
tingkatan 3 pakai baju hitam/merah time gather dengan tingkatan 5.
nampak sangat tanda protes.
nak memberontak.
padahal tak tahu sebab utama kena panggil.
alasan yang diberi,
" kami shocked. sebab semalam dah kena panggil dengan form 4. dah kena teruk dah semalam. tiba-tiba hari ni form 5 plak panggil. Jadi kami nak protes. tak setuju kenapa kami harus dipersalahkan."
alahai.
masalahnya,
memang salah form 3 pun.
sebab tu lah form 5 panggil.
Ingat kitaorang ni tak ada kerja lain ke asyik-asyik nak marah orang tak tentu pasal tanpa sebab.
banyak lagi cara lain dik oi.
nak selesaikan masalah cara baik.
masalah utama yang menyebabkan form 5 panggil dah selesai,
tapi masalah baru timbul.
siapa suruh ikut sangat perasaan amarah tu?
kan dah ikut hati, badan binasa.
nak memberontak konon.
bila tanya,
diam.
macam tembok batu.
haih.
ingatkan tadi berani sangat nak protes.
bila dah bersemuka,
takut.
nak cakap pun menggeletar.
lepas ini,
kalau nak buat sesuatu,
fikir dulu.
persiapkan diri.
jangan ambil tindakan melulu.
"Melampau nya form 3"
itu ayat warden bila tengok cara form 3 protes.
itu ayat cikgu tu.
bukan ayat form 5.
ingat senang ke nak hidup kat sekolah kalau cari masalah dengan senior?
contoh mudah aku bagi,
kejadian yang berlaku semalam.
tingkatan 3 pakai baju hitam/merah time gather dengan tingkatan 5.
nampak sangat tanda protes.
nak memberontak.
padahal tak tahu sebab utama kena panggil.
alasan yang diberi,
" kami shocked. sebab semalam dah kena panggil dengan form 4. dah kena teruk dah semalam. tiba-tiba hari ni form 5 plak panggil. Jadi kami nak protes. tak setuju kenapa kami harus dipersalahkan."
alahai.
masalahnya,
memang salah form 3 pun.
sebab tu lah form 5 panggil.
Ingat kitaorang ni tak ada kerja lain ke asyik-asyik nak marah orang tak tentu pasal tanpa sebab.
kenapalah nak tunjuk tak puas hati guna cara bodoh ni.
banyak lagi cara lain dik oi.
nak selesaikan masalah cara baik.
masalah utama yang menyebabkan form 5 panggil dah selesai,
tapi masalah baru timbul.
siapa suruh ikut sangat perasaan amarah tu?
kan dah ikut hati, badan binasa.
nak memberontak konon.
bila tanya,
diam.
macam tembok batu.
haih.
ingatkan tadi berani sangat nak protes.
bila dah bersemuka,
takut.
nak cakap pun menggeletar.
lepas ini,
kalau nak buat sesuatu,
fikir dulu.
persiapkan diri.
jangan ambil tindakan melulu.
"Melampau nya form 3"
itu ayat warden bila tengok cara form 3 protes.
itu ayat cikgu tu.
bukan ayat form 5.
ingat senang ke nak hidup kat sekolah kalau cari masalah dengan senior?
Saturday, February 7, 2009
aku dah hilang rasa nak tulis.
ohh. great.
baiklah. aku nak kongsi satu cerita ni.
a few days ago,
bey was sleeping on my bed and
i was lying next to her, unable to sleep
due to excessive caffeine intake that day.
i moved a bit, just to give Bey some space to sleep but
somehow causing Bey to wake up.
suddenly, she pulled my hair.
B : CJ! aku geram!
S : kenapa?
B : sebab tak ada orang suka aku.
and then she closed her eyes and fell asleep,
again.
now, tell me what would you do if your friend did this 3 o' clock in the morning when everyone else was fast asleep?
let me tell you what I did.
it took me a few second
but after i've finally come to my senses,
i started laughing.
BIG,
APPRECIATIVE
LAUGH.
nurul bainun, kau buat hidup aku ceria.
ini jujur.
tambahan ; aku rasa nak tukar link. kalau aku tukar, ada orang marah tak?
baiklah. aku nak kongsi satu cerita ni.
a few days ago,
bey was sleeping on my bed and
i was lying next to her, unable to sleep
due to excessive caffeine intake that day.
i moved a bit, just to give Bey some space to sleep but
somehow causing Bey to wake up.
suddenly, she pulled my hair.
B : CJ! aku geram!
S : kenapa?
B : sebab tak ada orang suka aku.
and then she closed her eyes and fell asleep,
again.
now, tell me what would you do if your friend did this 3 o' clock in the morning when everyone else was fast asleep?
let me tell you what I did.
it took me a few second
but after i've finally come to my senses,
i started laughing.
BIG,
APPRECIATIVE
LAUGH.
nurul bainun, kau buat hidup aku ceria.
ini jujur.
tambahan ; aku rasa nak tukar link. kalau aku tukar, ada orang marah tak?
ENVY
“If I had a world of my own, everything would be nonsense.
Nothing would be what it is, because everything would be what it isn’t. And
contrary wise, what is, it wouldn’t be. And what it wouldn’t be, it
would.”-Alice, from Alice in Wonderland (1951)
Thursday, February 5, 2009
KITA KENA SENTIASA GEMBIRA WALAUPUN ADA ORANG BUAT KITA RASA MACAM B*BI
"Menarilah dan terus tertawa
Walau dunia tak seindah surga
Bersukurlah pada yang kuasa
Cinta kita
di dunia
SELAMANYA."
Monday, February 2, 2009
Sunday, February 1, 2009
and the list goes on.
Can I have you just for one day,
Please?
Please?
- I'm not the type of person who shows affection easily. It takes courage, for me to say 'I love you' to someone in public.
- The thing that scares me the most is the idea of having no one when I'm in need.
- I’m afraid of believing in something that I know will end, soon.
I'm going back to school today! Yeah for school!
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