Don't be too righteous about things. Laughing at yourself is a healthy thing to do.

Lokasi : Kedai Mamak.

"Apa tu MANU?"
"Mana mama nampak MANU?
"Tu kat TV."
"Mama, bukan MANU lah. Tu Man U. As in Manchester United."

Itulah apa yang berlaku bila tak selalu tengok bola.

HAHA Funny.

INI HAKIKAT

Percaya tak semalam aku tidur 15 jam?

Aku sendiri pun susah nak percaya.

I've been thinking of changing school since I was 13 but I gave up hoping years ago because I always ended up with empty hands and pockets.

I went to my first tuisyen class today.

First of all, let me just say I was absolutely NOT excited nor thrilled with the idea of learning add math during the holidays. Especially at night.

But surprise surprise. Learning addmath tonight turned out to be FUN. Since the first time I learned add math, the word fun was never what I had in mind for add math. I've never been the type that adores anything that has something to do with numbers and formulas simply because I have a very bad memory. I couldn't even remember what I did ten minutes ago so remembering numbers and formulas might cause me brain damage. HAHA, over exaggerating.

Anyhow, the thought of changing school did occur to me after the class. Suddenly, I feel that I need tuisyen classes in order for me to excel in my examination next year and living in a boarding school makes it impossible for me to attend extra tuisyen classes. I know, tuisyen classes are not really that important because the classes don't actually ensure me my 9A's,right?

It's not that I'm complaining or anything. It's just that sometimes I'd like to experience different environement. Or in my case, different SCHOOL environment.

Oh Emm Gee
I'm PATHETIC.

Perkara yang baik memerlukan kesabaran yang tinggi, terutama daripada orang yang rendah takat didihnya.

Hari ni aku melayan seorang teman yang bosan yang tanya aku soalan yang aku dah malas nak jawab. Tahu tak meluat itu apa? Meluat itu bila aku tengok muka-beriya-nak-tahu kau itu.

“Kenapa kau tak de boyfriend?”

Dengan muka ingin-tahu, pandang aku muka stim dan beriya. Aku malas nak layan soalan basi macam ni, jadi aku jawab dengan ayat klise aku.

“Sebab tak ada orang nak kat aku.”

Dan itu adalah hakikat kebenaran dalam hidup aku.

“Takkan lah sorang pun tak suka kau.Tipu.”

Haih.

Kalau betul lah aku nak tipu, bukan kah lebih baik aku cakap yang ramai sangat minat kat aku sampai kan aku rambang mata nak pilih mana satu untuk dijadikan teman sampai aku bosan lepas itu tukar baru?

Kenapa susah sangat nak faham yang aku ni tak ada peminat rahsia? Aku bukan macam kau yang desperate perlukan girlfriend untuk mengisi cuti sekolah yang tersangat lah pendek ni. Aku sedar kekurangan diri yang memang dari sejak azali nya mempunyai kekurangan yang tiada tolak bandingnya. Aku tak kurus. Aku tak lawa. Aku tak tinggi. Perut aku buncit. Punggung aku besar.

Sebab aku sedar, aku tak jadi macam hidung tak mancung,, pipi tersorong-sorong. Pernah kau rasa ditolak hanya kerana berat badan kau berlebihan? Ditolak hanya kerana kau kelihatan seperti tong yang dipam-pam sampaikan dia malu nak tunjuk kau kat kawan-kawan?

Jadi, sekarang aku nak tunggu.

My Knight In Shining Armour.

Yang terima aku seadanya. Tak malu nak tunjuk aku kat dunia. Yang sanggup mengaku dia aku yang punya. Sampai bila aku nak tunggu?

Sampai dia datang depan aku naik kuda putih.

Adakah semua mereka yg bernama Sarah sangat rendah takat didihnya?

Damn you broadband.

Yes, I am cursing the very lembab broadband. Now you know the reason for the lack of blog updates and to any curious passer-by, this Sarah is indeed very emo.

I'm currently in a phase where I'm not very sure what I want in life but one thing that I am very sure, that I want is LG Q KS360 but like the LOMOCAM, I doubt that I'll get it in the near future.

Ohhya, Next year will be an important year for me, thanks to SPM.

haih.

I'm supposed to be studying right now but I prefer wasting my precious time infront of the computer updating my boring blog. So yeah, I'm taking this opportunity to thank those who have been reading my blog all this while. :) Anyway, yesterday I watched Madagascar 2 with some of my primary school friends. Madagascar 2 really is a must-watch movie. Alex sure looks cute when he was smaller and again, I just realised that I like musical movies such as HSM, Mamma Mia, Hairspray and The Phantom Of The Opera. I mean, who would have thought that I was the musical type.

And, I hope to marry a guy who knows how to play the guitar and the piano, who is a photographer, and a very good cook.

Or if that's asking waayy too much, I just hope he loves me for who I am, and knows how to sing. :)

yeah I'm talking to you B***h!

Kepada semua,

Selamat Bercuti!

Stop being a drama queen.

Thank God for school holidays because I don't have to see you face for awhile. Stop the pretending game that you're playing and just cut the crap. I mean, seriously man!! Just tell me face to face that you don't like me. End of story. There's no need to pretend that we like each other which obviously, we don't.

Now, start walking. Cause by the time you finished reading this post, I hope you'd dissappear into thin air.

Kepada mereka yang tak berkaitan, tolong jangan perasan post ini untuk anda

I love playing tag-along.

Tagged by Fatin Diana Ahmad Subki.

Thanks Fatin!

>> I am hopeless when it comes to numbers and formulas.
>> I keep hoping for the wrong things.
>> I wish for money to fall from the sky.
>> I love my FAMILY.
>> I dance when I feel like it.
>> I sing songs that I like.
>> I really like guys who can play musical instruments
>> I need my own camera ;)
>> I should be organising plan for the school holiday.
>> I can eat like there's no tomorrow.
>> I like sentimental songs.
>> I make my life hard sometimes.
>> I always think about dying.
>> I think I should lose some weight off my body.
>> I enjoy my family and friends company.
>> I hate clowns!

3 People I wish to Tag :-
1. Siti Khadijah Hamizah
2. Iman Izzati
3. Emira Farzana

Feeling Random today.

1) I detest clowns of any kind.
They, which refer to clown gives me goosebumps all over. They're supposed to be funny and hilarious but to me they're just SCARY. They're just evil. Plain evil I tell ya.

2) I like cold drinks, with ice.
I have to have ice in my drinks. It's compulsary. Life and death situation, man. Hahahahhaha.



3) Sometimes, I pretend to be someone who's the total opposite of me.
Which is a lot smarter, prettier, down to earth, kind, considerate, patient, gentle, passionate, soft spoken, well informed, focus. Basically, someone who's not ME.

(This picture has absolutely nothing to do with number 3)

Let's scream and shout!!

ESOK BALIK!!!!!!!

Goodbye school of despair.

We shall meet again next year when I come with new bags, shoes, clothes, hope, spirit and a NEW ME. I shall lead a happy life for one and a half month before I have to come back to this hell which I was forced to call as my so-called HOME.

School clothes?

Shoes?

Undergarments?

Books?

Toiletries?

Check, check,check,check and CHECK!

All set.

All I have to do is wait for tomorrow to come.

Dear Friday, can you please hurry up?

I WANT LOMO, again!

I don't allow myself from wanting any lomocam for these past few months but now, I could feel the urge to have one of my own.

The only thing I can do now is HOPE.

Sunday

I don't know what to write.

Should I write about what happened yesterday?
Or should I write about what happened last Sunday?

Maybe I should write about Sunday.

Sunday

Before I start this entry, let me just say that how I react on Sunday was purely caused by unbalanced and very STUUUUPID hormones that has taken over my body. So, to ayah and mama, I am very very very very very very very very SOOORRRYYY! Please forgive me!

*guilty*

Every weekend, my parents would come and visit me. So to make sure what time they'd be here( when I say here, I mean my school) , I call my dad and he said he'd be here around 4 pm.

After that, I continued doing my everyday routine which includes watching MELODI, Tamil movie (SERIOUSLY!!), basically, spending the entire day (almost) at recreation room.

Slowly time passes me by.

It was already 4. I waited and waited and waited and waited and waited. Alas! They were no where to be seen. *Dramatic much* Yeah, so I waited until they came. (Which was at 4.48 pm) I already had the instinct that they would be late.

I put on my scarf and quickly head out to the carpark and I tried very hard to put a smile on my face. I mean, I know they've come all the way from Gombak to see me. So I should be happy to see them, right? Instead, I put on my tak-puas-hati look and went to the car. Inside the car, I didn't even utter a word. My sister asked me about something but I just kept quiet.

At the cafe, mama and ayah had a very small fight about money because apparently, neither of them had brought any money with them. I lost my mood altogether. In a VERY EMO state, I went to class and carried all my book by MYSELF. Sometimes, It's a wonder what I can do when I'm emotional. After that, I told them to send me back to the hostel.

So the rest was history. They dropped me off. I gave them my 'baju kotor' and hangers that Mama wanted.

Mama asked me, what's wrong. I just shook my head. Between 'Janganlah macam ni' and 'tell me what's wrong', I started crying and everything came out.

And the ketidakpuasan hati didn't stop there. It continued until at the dorm.

I am a type of person who doesn't like to be late. I like punctuality. I learned that from my mother. She doesn't like to wait. Well, same goes to me. I don't like waiting. I get anxious. You have every right to be late but if you know you're going to be late, just tell me straight up. Don't go on promising me that you'll come at 4 pm and you end up coming at 5.59 pm.

I am so sorry. I am so sorry. I am so sorry. I am so sorry. I am so sorry. I am so sorry. I am so sorry. I am so sorry. I am so sorry. I am so sorry. I am so sorry. I am so sorry. I am so sorry. I am so sorry. I am so sorry. I am so sorry. I am so sorry. I am so sorry. I am so sorry. I am so sorry. I am so sorry. I am so sorry. I am so sorry. I am so sorry. I am so sorry. I am so sorry. I am so sorry. I am so sorry. I am so sorry. I am so sorry. I am so sorry. I am so sorry. I am so sorry. I am so sorry. I am so sorry. I am so sorry. I am so sorry. I am so sorry. I am so sorry. I am so sorry. I am so sorry. I am so sorry. I am so sorry. I am so sorry. I am so sorry. I am so sorry. I am so sorry. I am so sorry. I am so sorry. Please forgive me?

Sijil Pelajaran Malaysia

TO ALL FIFTH FORMERS,

ALL THE BEST.

Alkisah aku terbang ke dorm orang

Pagi tadi aku terjaga pukul 3 pagi. Tak tahu lah kenapa. Mungkin sebab aku dah tidur petang semalam.

Aku cuba nak tidur balik.

Pusing kanan.
Pusing kiri.
Peluk bantal.
Buang selimut.

Senang kata semua tak menjadi lah. Aku ni dah lah penakut sikit. Takkan lah nak berjaga sampai pukul 6.30 pagi kot.

So aku pun cari jalan macam mana nak buat diri aku tidur.

Tiba-tiba aku teringat kat Tehah. Katil sebelah dia kosong sebab empunya katil pergi Sarawak. Aku pun berkira-kira jugak lah nak pergi dorm dia. Tapi ada satu je masalah. Dorm dia kat aras dua. Jauh jugak lah daripada dorm aku.

Aku berani kan diri buka pintu dorm aku. Aku nampak form 5 masih jalan-jalan. Naik jugak lah semangat nak pergi fly dorm Tehah bila tengok ada lagi manusia yang belum tidur. Aku jalan laju gila. Siput sedut pun kalah. Sampai je kat dorm Tehah, aku tengok pintu dah terbuka luas.

Tehah ni memang dah jangka yang aku akan datang ke?

Masuk je dorm Tehah aku tengok dia tidur,
Masyallah!
Dah terbungkang Tehah atas katil macam Spiderman nak panjat dinding.

Aku tarik katil rapat dengan katil Tehah. Tapi sebelum aku tidur aku kejut dia. Bagitahu dia awal-awal yang aku tidur sebelah dia. Yelah, pernah sekali tahun lepas aku datang tidur tepi dia, berselubung dengan selimut tutup satu badan. Pagi esok dia bangun terkejut tengok hantu selubung mana tidur tepi dia ni. Dia kata nasib baik lah dia tak menjerit. Kalau tak gamat juga satu asrama. Jadi aku tak mo lah perkara tu berlaku lagi.

Aku baring. Cuba tutup mata. Tapi tak boleh gak. Sebab sejuk sangat. Aku baring betul-betul bawah kipas. Nasib baik lah aku tak beku.

Lepastu aku dah tak ingat dah apa yang berlaku.

Sedar-sedar dah pukul 6.30 pagi. Tehah kejut suruh pergi solat subuh kat surau.

PeeaSs; Lagi 6 hari nak balik! :DDDDDDD

My Family

Form 1

Some of my classmates when we were in Form 2.

Form 3

Form 4

Form 3

Form 3

Form 4

Last Day of PMR

I've been tagged!

My Top 10 Most Favorite Foods :
1) Thosai Paper satuu!
2) Kuew Teow Goreng
3) Hotdog with cheese in it.
4) Sparkling water (Is water consider as food?)
5) Crabby KETAM.
6) Ice cream ( Kit Kat)
7) Nasi Lemak!!!!!
8) Have to agree with Iman on Junk foods
9) Sushi! Arigato! :))))
10) Kuih raya//

Top 10 Things I Love Doing :
1) Surf the wave of the internet. ;))
2) Movie-marathon!
3) Come up with names for my going-to be children :))
4) Read lovey dovey novels. (Currently addicted to MALAY jiwang-jiwang novels)
5) EAT! Duhh!!
6) Read manga (on the internet)
7) Sing as loud as I can.
8) 'Usha'-ing unknown yet interesting people on the internet
9) Read blogs. :D
10) I'm leaving this one blank because I have no idea what to write here. :))

5 Things I Love Doing When I'm EMO :
1) keep quiet
2) layan lagu dalam MP3
3) play the pretend game (in my head that is)
4) DAYDREAMING about my future life. :DD
5) Jump off the roof.

Top 5 Types of Guys I Adore :
1) Independent
2) Sensible and a romantic guy.
3) Must know how to play the GUITAR and the PIANO. :D
4) Must be taller than me. (Please?)
5) Again, I don't know what to write here. Typical me.


5 Things I Love Doing When I'm Happy :
1) Smile (:D)
2) Laugh (hahahhaha?)
3) listening to songs in my MP3 ( yet again?)
4) I do absolutely NOTHING.
5) I EAT???

5 Things I Wish To Happen :
1) I hope to be very very very very very very RICH in the next 10 to 20 years!
2) to get straight A's for SPM next year. Insyallah~
3) to find the love of my life and get married before I'm 26 y/o. Ok tak?
4) I wish for world peace. (One can hope can she?)
5) For a good and exciting life??

My Top 10 Most Addicted Song :
1) Sempurna - Andra and the Blackbone
2) Big Bang - Big Bang
3) Andai Ku Tahu - Ungu - Flyleaf
4) Dan Sebenarnya - Yuna
5) Cinta Sempurna - Yuna
6) Dugaannya - Hujan
8) Handle Me - Robyn
9) Lucky - Jason Mraz
10) Fall for you- Secondhand Serenade

5 People I Wish To Tag :
1) khadijah H
2) Zuzilawani
3)Irsyad
4)Fateen A
5)ACE+

I need nobody but you, ORION 0509

Memang aku teruja nak balik. Memang aku tak sabar nak jumpa keluarga. Memang aku gembira dapat bebas. Tapi tiba-tiba aku rasa sedih sangat nak tinggalkan sekolah. Jangan salah faham. Aku bukannya nak pindah sekolah (walaupun sebenarnya dalam diam tulah yang aku harapkan) Cuma, aku rasakan yang perpisahan tu semakin dekat. Dekat sangat.

Aku tak pernah suka sekolah ni. Aku tak tahu kenapa. Tak payah lah nak bazir air liur tanya sebab secara jujurnya aku pun tak tahu. Yang aku tahu, aku tak suka sekolah ni. FULLSTOP.

Tapi bila aku tengok batch leader tersayang nangis hari tu masa party batch. Aku rasa sebak. Tiba-tiba rasa yang aku tak mahu berpisah dengan batch aku. Panggil lah aku emo atau apa apa pun. Aku tak kisah.EMPAT TAHUN hidup bersama. Dah kenal dah hati budi masing-masing. Kadang-kadang kat mulut kata benci, tapi dalam hati sayang. Mana boleh benci keluarga sendiri kan? Memang semua orang tak sama tapi kelainan lah yang buat ORION 0509 unik. Aku mengaku yang bukan dengan semua orang aku rapat tapi kita family & family stick together.

Tahun depan, Adillah Radhiah dah nak balik Sarawak terus. Bila lagi lah kita nak jumpa kan Dill? Walaupun aku tak rapat sangat ngan kau Dill, tapi kau still kawan aku. :D Dill, aku harap kau gembira dan bahagia kat mana-mana pun kau berada. Selamat berjaya untuk SPM tahun depan.
*diam*

Aku dah tak tahu nak cakap apa.

The family. We were a strange little band of characters trudging through life sharing diseases and toothpaste, coveting one another's desserts, hiding shampoo, borrowing money, locking each other out of our rooms, inflicting pain and kissing to heal it in the same instant, loving, laughing, defending, and trying to figure out the common thread that bound us all together.
-Erma Bombeck-

You don't choose your family. They are God's gift to you, as you are to them.
-Desmond Tutu-

isi kuku ruas

Siapa ada masalah berkenaan dengan duit/wang?
Aku ada.

Dulu aku tak pernah ada kad atm. Sebab mak aku kata aku kecik. Tak boleh dipercayai. Nanti belanja duit sampai habis.

Sekarang bila dah enambelas tahun, aku dah ada kad sendiri. Warna kuning pulak tu.

Setiap bulan mama masukkan duit 80 ringgit dalam bank. Satu minggu guna 20 ringgit. Duit dengan aku tak boleh duduk dekat. Pasti aku akan belanja sampai habis. Satu hari aku boleh habiskan 10 ringgit.

So macam mana nak tahan? Secara tuntasnya, dalam bank selalu kosong.

Tapi mama suka tanya.

"Dalam bank ada duit lagi tak?"

Takkan aku nak jawab tak de. Puas aku kena dengar dia membebel. Jadi aku tipu. Aku cakap yang dalam bank aku ada duit lagi. BANYAK DUIT!

Sekarang ni aku dah tak selalu sangat keluarkan duit dari bank. Sebab takut mama check. Nanti kalau dia check dalam bank tinggal sikit je, mati lah aku jawab nya.

Jadi aku dah fikir beberapa cara altenatif nak cari/dapat duit.

Pertama//
JUAL HOTDOG KAT ASRAMA.
Kat asrama kalau kelab/persatuan atau apa-apa je lah nak duit, mesti jual hotdog/fishball. Aku rasa banyak jugak untung dia.

Kedua//
JUAL BAJU AKU YANG ADA KAT RUMAH.
Aku suka baju. So kat rumah memang banyak baju.

Ketiga//
CARI KERJA
Hari tu masa pergi open house kawan kakak aku, diaorang bincang pasal nak kerja kat PAVILION. Macam nak join je.

Keempat//
hm.
Entah lahh. Aku dah buntu.